my new favorite verses of the bible it kinda reminds me of my baptism

But as for you, continue in what you have learned and have become convinced of, because you know those from whom you learned it, and how from infancy, you have known the holy Scriptures… (2 Timothy 3:14-15)

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity. devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. Persevere in them, because if you do, you will save both yourself and your hearers. " - (1 Timothy 4 )

looks like my prayers were answered

my bffl is now once again my bffl again and here are some pics to remind me of this so i follow all her rules and wishes

random pics cuz i have no life

OUR FREINDSHIP WOULDNT BE THIS BAD..........PLEASE FORGIVE ME AND TALK TO ME SO WE CAN FIGURE OUT THE PROBLEM

over and over ive tried

over and over ive tried to be me actually let me rephrase this I AM ME and ive tried to save one out of many friendships ive never really mastered at having but this one seems to be worse than any others and my best friend now hates me *assuming* cause she wont talk to me. and maybe ive lied to her and hurt her because i never unsterstood the concept until she sat down and told me i really just dont know what to do anymore except pretend that i dont exsist for two weeks and not do anything towards her my brother told me to go two weeks without talking to aubrey or to anyone basically pretending like we never met and shes a stranger towards me which is whats she making me feel like im a stranger to her but im stopping wednesdays nights going to church cause i have swim practice and maybe even sundays cause i have nothing to look forward to

im just doing this because i no longer have anyone to relate to me anymore becuz i think NOW she HATES ME so now i have no life......................

VAMPIRES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(can i be one)

Fear (of losing my best friend)

although people say fear its something that comes on strong and its just part of life....well maybe they're right but just a few nights ago i was on the Virge of losing both my godmother who cares about me dearly and my best friend all because i was trying to get her to tell me why she was mad at me i thought i knew why but i wasn't sure but i told her how i felt and i guess it just wasnt the right thing her very last words to me were ashley back off but if i offended her in anyway im really and i hate myself for doing this and im sorry i cant be like other teens these days and i dont have the proper behavior for 15 and ill admit i do have issues and trouble making and keeping my friends but im not letting this friendship go down the even if you decide never to talk me again for the rest of my teenage life or ever again but i will continue trying and trying to make everyones behavior requirements although you dont have many rules to follow and theyre not that hard to follow either but im sorry i just really upset when i make someone mad and dont how or why it just makes me feel as if they dont care to tell me because im just gonna do it again but i dont have many friends and i feel as if everyone avoids mebecause im some im some kind of freeko or something but sometimes i wish i could just kill myself but i dont because i know there are very few people in my life who care about me but there might not be alot but at least they still care......

Lost & Found

I can't wait for you anymore,because I'm running out of time. I'm losing trust in you and I'm losing my mind.I need for you to move on and forget about me,because your time is up and I'm no longer happy. I've cried every night since the day that we met;All my sunny days are now becoming wet.I'm no longer strong and i can no longer sleep,because everything I've had I can no longer keep For it is lost...But now...I realize I don't need you and it's all about me;what was lost is found and much clearer to see.I know who I am and I know what's right;I know how to act and I know what's in sight.I have a vision for myself,that doesn't involve you,because I can stand up for myself in all that I do.I have self-control and I have self-worth,and with the strength that I gained,I can no longer be hurt.As a person, I've gotten better,I've matured and I've grown and things are much easier now that I'm on my own.What once was lost came running back,because what's Lost is Found and that's a matter of fact.

SAD??????????

:( sad indeed is an emotion we all but life is a journey, a rollercoaster, a boring life long jtheatrical drama directed by YOU and GOD so live it to the fullest and be sad only if you must :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY YOUR SO MUCH OLDER WHOO YOUR TWELVE!!!!!!

elsewhere on why??(AND IF YOUR READING THIS PLEASE DONT GET MAD)

WHY? is the question every teenager asks they think every thing that happens is a punishment for something they did wrong maybe from some sort of higher being or something well.....im fifteen and trust me ive totally been in that been there done that situation i TRY so hard to make a bad situation go good no one could imagine how much i get in trouble all the way from telling someone somthing good about another person when that person is shy all the way to sending notes to someone when their busy or telling my brother to shutup while he or me are the phone with someone i mean why does a teenager get in trouble so much from a person who claims not to be the "authorotive figure" but im coming to an end to this problem for all teenagers ALL OVER THE WORLD to help show adults that although they claim not to be the authorotive figure they are because they are still YELLING at YOU........ILL HAVE AN ANSWER JUST AS SOON AS I DO SOME RESEARCH SO LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS AND TELL ALL YOUR FRIENDS TO LEAVE COMMENTS ON WHAT THEY THINK WE TEENS/KIDS SHOULD DO ASK QUESTIONS AND LEAVE ANSWERS/ADVICE FOR OTHER TEENS JUST LIKE YOU AND ME

IM BEING HONEST TO MYSELF(AND TO HER)

let me introduce the person in the coolest in the whole world other than god he is tad bit more cooler and way more powerful than any1 ive ever known AND ALTHOUGH SOMETIMES I CHOOSE NOT TO LISTEN TO HER AND GET IN TROUBLE.......(SEE ELSEWHERE ON WHY?) what ever she tells me is always right and although i try to make the situation better i usually just end up making it worse or annoying the crap out of her i try my best not to and to listen to everything she says but sometime i try to act like im right and shes wrong and although there are times when i want to say why does it seem as if im always getting in trouble and for once in this stupid teenage mind of mine i know she is tottally RIGHT the more she is changing the more im being hurt by it and i will certainly admit that yes i have done some really pretty stupid stuff i think what i have done to her is by far the worst i have ever done to anyone even myself i used to be so close to her but things changeed alot between the two of us and as much as ive been trying to make myself better and not be really stupid and be responsible for my actions and to apologize to her and two more things to add before i end this #1 i just pray to god to help me through this regged and ragged path in life and that everything can become better between me and aubrey and i that i can gain her trust back and learn how to deal and not get mad just cause she tells something I DONT WANT TO HEAR EVEN THOUGH SHES PROBABLY RIGHT AT THAT POINT IN TIME #2 the person in this picture is aubrey my godmother aka the coolest person in the world besides god and that if i dont post again that because im dead because aub was only joking and said if i ever showed these pictures to anyone she was going to kill me(HA HA)

i love her but i dont really know her

i miss my mom so much and i love her but i dont know her that well...did god take her for a reason......its not fair i have to live without a mother obliviously she didnt care!!!!!!!!!!!

MOM

DECEMBER 10TH 1996

R.I.P

LOVE YOU

crosses

aubrey

ok you might be wondering why i titled it this....well heres why.....you see i lost my mom when i was three and i was adopted by my aunt and ive known her as mom since i was about 3 1/2 and i started going to church when i was 7 i went to different churches well about 2 yrs ago i started going to a church with my aunt and my uncle (not my mom) and i got involved with the youth group and we went on a trip and i forgot to bring a sweatshirt so a girl that was going whom i did not know yet lent me her sweatshirt she seemed really nice to me so i decided to introduce myself and about 2 wks later confirmation started at night from 6-8 and there was that girl again my pastor knew her she seemed really nice to me so i asked her if she would want to sit with me. about a wk l8tr i got involved with the sound booth because the guy who originally was up whom i knew was resigning and askeed me if id be willing to help out i said sure so i was trained by sm1 whom i knew (not very well though)it was her again..... so we exchanged emails and that day she became my friend b/c we had alot in common so we emailed each other nonstop for three hrs and that sunday we hung out we went to smithville and about 5 mths after i really got 2 know it was at confirmation i asked my pasto5r what he thought about this and i asked aubrey if shed be my godmother (yes) she became godmother 1 wk prior to that sunday and after that ive learned so much from her famous quote is "ashley knock it off" if im doing smthing to annoy her but she has became the closest person to me who i have in my life b/c i dont know any1 closer to me than her.......i believe that she was sent here in place of my mom although shes not my mom she gives me advice and love just as she were shes like the mom i never had shes the closest person i have in my life who loves just as god does..aubrey this is for you and how you are always there 4 me even if i do have to call ur house 50 times...love u wit all my heart